I really Internet regret nothing more than ever trying to learn about Israel-Palestine anything on Facebook because it has made people I used to trust a lot become really viscerally distressing to me.
Like fear brings out really ugly things in people?
I’ve also never seen an issue become so racialised in a way that’s not even mentally tangible to me anymore?
I always like being reminded that I’m not “good” at being a POC.
I always liked being so alienated from Jewish culture that I’m not even acknowledged as also being Jewish in any way whilst being blamed for not doing ‘anything’ to protect you from something no one has tried to make clear in a way that doesn’t feel like an attack or pressure.*
Because I’m really trying to make my Facebook be a shrine to anti-Semitism.
Because in my wanting to reclaim my Jewishness and knowing I want to rear my future children with, I want to have explicit fears about my and my family’s safety.
Because that makes so much fucking sense.
(*I’ve held the hands of black friends enabling various displays of anti-blackness and I’m very aware it isn’t easy, but don’t alienate people who share something with you that aren’t able to know about it? / I’m not the only estranged Jewish person who has felt alienated by you or this, so I know at least I’m not crazy).
I don’t know how you can say you wish a word were a slur, then aggressively negate the lived experience of a POC who has experienced that same word as a slur (where multiple factors are coming into play), and—???
(this is like when C and R were using the n-word to describe people and I was in the car with them and they were so angry [and scared] and like—)
~I want white people who are never going to say or do disconcerting white people things~
~~That’s all I want~~